I’m on the cusp these days.  I feel like I’m living my life on the verge of something else…and its true, I am.  I am quite literally weeks away from being a mother.  The anxiety and excitement of that is completely overwhelming.  I can’t believe that in about a month I will have a baby….a little person that will depend on me for years to come.  A person that will mold himself off of what I do and teach him.  It’s terrifying and exciting all at once.  I just can’t believe I’m making a person.  I can’t wait to see him.

This was taken 2 nights ago at a little over 34 weeks pregnant (actually, almost 35 weeks).

I’m also on the verge of a new hobby, which has me totally excited (and also scared).  I took the plunge and ordered a whole ton of silversmithing supplies.  I don’t even want to discuss how much I spent on them.  I feel like I have everything I need, even though I’m sure I will discover some little tool that I can’t work without that I will have to order.  Now, I’m just waiting for it all to arrive.  I’m going to start experimenting as soon as I get everything, but I am going to wait on a few things until after I have the baby.  I’m a little worried about the flux and pickle (especially the pickle) and the effects it might have on the baby.  So, soldering will probably have to wait.  Honestly, I probably won’t even have it set up and ready to go in time to even think about working with pickle before the baby is born.  None of my stuff is supposed to arrive until next week.  Then I have to figure out where to get my tanks filled for my torch.  Then I have to actually set up a work area.  Then I can think about getting started.  That’s a lot, especially considering that I have the energy of a 90 year old right now.  But still, I’m excited.  Oh…and I’ve started collecting stones for when I feel confident enough to start on bezel settings.  If you have any good silversmithing links or advice, feel free to leave them for me.

Anyway, speaking of energy, I’m sleepy.  Night.

I have lots of stuff going on lately.  I will start with the baby stuff.

First off, I am huge.  I think I’m starting to get my own gravitational pull, seriously.  We are working hard to get our house baby ready.  We have the bed ready and a swing.  We also have a bunch of clothes, but I still need to wash them.  That’s on my list for tomorrow (assuming I don’t get consumed by my regular laundry duty).  My baby shower is going to be on the 24th, and I should get lots of neato stuff then too.  I went to the doctor last Tuesday and had an ultrasound.  Everything seems to be going great.  He’s already turned and has his head pointed straight down and already on my cervix.  (Sorry if this is TMI)  The doctor checked, and my cervix is “closed tight” (her words exactly), so there isn’t anything to worry about.  He’s just getting ready.  She does believe (and I agree) that I will probably end up having him a little bit early.  Early as in 37 – 38 weeks instead of 40.  She also believes that this could cause me to have an easier labor (hey…that rocks).  But, she said she could be wrong.  Bottom line, he’ll be here when he’s good and ready.  We’re going to plan and prepare like he will be here sooner rather than later though.  Oh, and we have a name, but I haven’t decided on what to call him for blogging purposes yet.

I’ve been knitting.  I finished my Sweet Baby Cap, and it is so cute.  I’m going to have to make another one soon (hopefully before the baby gets here).  I started another pair of Charade socks and I’m already past the heel on the first one.  And of course I’m still working on the Cleopatra Wrap and Bayerische Socks.  I don’t have any new pictures though because I’m lazy and haven’t downloaded them from the camera.

I have exciting artsy fartsy news.  I’m going to teach myself silversmithing!  I just ordered two books on the subject, and I plan to begin collecting supplies (ie stones!).  I plan on doing lots of reading and learning and preparing so that I can start playing sometime after the baby gets here.  This will of course take a little more planning than I did when I decided to teach myself to knit.  I can’t just go out one day and buy a book, yarn, and some needles.  This will require an actual set up, a work bench and lots of tools.  Which means Mike and I will need to figure out where I can do this.  Even though it’s more of a long term project, I’m still super excited.

Anyway, I think that’s about it.  Sorry it’s been so long since I posted.  I’ve had a lot going on.

I can’t believe next week is Christmas.  The weeks keep flying by, and I have absolutely nothing to show for it, except an ever expanding belly.  Seriously, I’m getting huge.  This weekend we are planning on taking belly shots, and if we get some decent ones, maybe I will share.  I seem to be developing a mean case of nesting along with some knitting startitis.  I have big cleaning plans for next week when I’m off work for the holidays.  I’m still working on my Bayerische Socks and I’ve started a Cleopatra Wrap but I’m kind of aching for something small, quick, and completely satisfying.  Maybe another Stacked Eyelet Cowl is in order since I practically live in my first one.  Oh, look at this Central Park Hoodie.  It’s gorgeous, it almost makes me want to knit a sweater (by the way, I’m not that huge….yet).  I have problems with sweaters.  I don’t have the attention span to finish one, and if I do manage to finish one, I decide for one reason or another that I absolutely hate it and can never wear it.  I dunno, I’m weird.  I think I must be a process knitter.  I don’t actually end up wearing a whole lot of what I knit, with the exception of my cowl and mitts.

Anyway, that’s about it.  I’m going to go pee for what must be the billionth time today and then work on my Cleo wrap.

Wow, its been a little while since I posted. Lets see, I finished my Swallowtail Shawl and a Darkside cowl. I don’t have pictures of the Darkside cowl yet, but I have a bunch of my shawl. I’m actually not sure that I like my Darkside cowl, I think it’s the yarn/pattern combo that is bugging me. Oh well, you win some, you lose some. My shawl is awesome though. It was a beast to photograph because the yarn is so dark, and I was trying to take pictures at night. But Mike helped me and we got some good ones. Oh, and blocking while you are pregnant is really uncomfortable, just an FYI.

My Thanksgiving was nice. I woke up sick (a cold…again) on Thanksgiving day, and stayed sick until Sunday. But I still had a nice time and lots of yummy food. This past week was crazy busy. We had work, two maternity classes, and our company Christmas party. I’m getting really excited about the baby, I know I don’t talk about it much (on my blog) but I’m getting excited. We registered for baby stuff, we’ve started our maternity classes, and I’m getting huge. February is going to be here in no time. I’m actually a little bit nervous about it, but I think that’s normal.

My Masdevallia infracta self combusted. It seemed to be doing fine, and then one day all the leaves started falling off. They didn’t turn brown or anything, they just fell off. In a matter of days, all the leaves were gone. Thanks to the help of everyone at the Orchid Board, I figured out that the problem was overwatering, or rather that the moss it was planted in was old and holding too much water. So, lesson learned, and hopefully I won’t repeat that mistake.

Anyway, that’s about it.